it comes to a point in time when i'm just so sick and tired of everything. everything that's going on around me which i'm too weary to care. like i said i'm no superman and i have no intention of becoming one either.
returning to school after the term break somehow i've lost my drive and motivation to do work. it's like you know you have things to do yet you really have no mood to do them. this hasn't happened before and i don't know why it's happening now. seriously no idea. probably because schwork is piling up like shit, hence the term 'shitloads of work'. i am disappointed with myself for feeling like this, to say the least. i don't understand myself, what i'm doing and all.
friends' relationship problems? i know it may be unfeeling to say this but i really can't be bothered anymore, not at this moment anyway. i would very much like to help and see everybody happy again, but even machines need a break and i need my break. furthermore i'm in no position to give any advice. i just hope you guys will be okay.
grandma got admitted to hospital last night. something to do with the heart. but she'll be fine in a few days' time. went to visit her this morning in the intensive care unit. and momentarily, i realised how little time i've been spending with her all these while. and how selfish i am as a person too caught up in my own stuff to care about her, when all she wants is to see her only grandson once in a while. she's someone who almost single-handedly took care of me when i was young and watched me grow into the young man i am today. but all i could do was to look at her lie on the cold hospital bed, with the pillows which probably aren't comfortable in the first place. i love my grandmother, i really do.
and in actual fact, i do care alot for you. because somehow, you've become a very special friend to me.
Sunday, July 02, 2006
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